Since I wrote a blog yesterday about our beloved Michael Jackson, I didn’t want to include any story about me there, just purely MJ. haha.

I had my pre-employment medical test yesterday. I was a little worried because I know, medical tests require a stool example (that I absolutely cannot provide because I can’t poop, as in I really can’t no matter how hard I try, if I’m not at home) so luckily I didn’t have to provide any, BUT, the experience that I would never forget is that the lady doctor had to take a look on my anus if I have hemorrhoids. Hahaha. That was my first time and I feel very embarrassed. Dunno why though. I’m in a medical field and when I see those things, I don’t mind it at all. lol. Oh well, that’s the experience that I had, memorable.

Still I can’t accept the fact that Michael Jackson is gone. The physical presence of him can no longer be felt. I heard this tribute song for MJ, a letter from Lisa Marie Presley (MJ’s ex-wife), the 911 call made from MJ’s home, and more news from etonline.com. The whole world is not yet through with MJ, but he is through with the world. It’s so sad. The world can’t give us another Michael Jackson. Not now, nor in the future. He’s the last one, and the only one.

I woke up this morning, the first thing I heard was the beeping of my phone, 2 text messages, it displays. The first message I read was “Mhl c Michael Jackson cnugod sa hosp.. Ngcardiac arrest xa..” and I went blank. Is this even true? Or just another stupid rumor that deep inside me I HOPE is not true. I HOPE SO BADLY PLEASE BE NOT TRUE. PLEASE.

Then I closed my eyes, trying to ignore that text, but I can’t. The first site I ever logged into was tmz.com, and there, the headline was so big, that it hit me right in the face, yeah it’s true, “Micheal Jackson died at 50″. That’s when I realized, oh my God, how could we lose someone so great, that it seemed like he would live forever. He’s the invincible man, isn’t he? He’s the thriller. He’s everything.

When I was young, my dad used to play a lot of songs, mostly from him. But I didn’t know, that it was MJ’s songs. I just went on and sing along whenever I hear those. Heal the World was my favorite. Then I saw a man, in a video while watching TV and I thought, “Wow, that man is good. He’ll be popular, I think” what I didn’t know, that the whole world already knew, that he was the most popular, the greatest entertainer of all time, it was the same man whom I sing along when I was young, he was Michael Jackson. No, I’m not a big fan, nor the greatest fan, but I’m an admirer of such talent, skills, influence and the legacy he created that the entire music history will not be what it is right now, if it wasn’t because of him.

Rest in Peace Michael J. You healed the world. You removed the barriers, united the races. Reinvent the whole music industry that almost everyone in it, made you their inspiration. No one will ever take your place, no one will ever achieve such greatness, no one will ever be Michael Jackson, just you. Only you.

Watch this touching video, made me cry:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R9DDTiPzJCk

Based on my last post below, you know that I actually prepared for the interview I had yesterday. I’m happy to say it turned out really well and I was supposed to have my final interview today, but I did not show up and decided to give it up. I did not attend the final interview. Why? Because of some personal reasons. I know, it’s not the wisest decision but I do not regret it. I won’t be working there anyway if given a chance.

To some, they know that I’m a nursing graduate, but when I think about it now, do I really see myself working as a volunteer nurse? Probably for the next few months or so. Why did I say “volunteer” nurse? Simly because it’s close to being impossible for the newly graduates to be hired in a hospital. Well, I’m not generalizing it, some are just so good that they are hired immediately. I don’t know the real process how nurses are hired, but all I know is that we undergo training, a lot of training until we get hired. I’m hoping the same thing fate of those “so good” persons happen to me as well. I know I have to work hard, but how hard should I work for it? To make this long story short, I wish I have taken a different course. I wish I did.

I’m actually practicing right now for my interview tomorrow. hahaha.

So anyway, if you have twitter, follow me! I would love to hear from you. Add me pa3n. Thank you.

My very first interview didn’t go well so.. I have another interview on monday, on a different company. lol. :) I learned my lessons well, I need to PREPARE. hahaha.. oh well. Hopefully I’ll get it right this time.